November 4, 2012

Who I am.

I'm a daugher. A friend. A sister.

I hate onions.
My longest real relationship was 2 months.
I've been in love twice.
My biggest fear is being a disappointment to my parents.
Red is my favorite color, but if you saw my room you would think pink was.
I don't watch very much football but I'm a Seahawks fan.
I was born and raised in Seattle.
I am inactive in the Mormon church, and honestly I don't know if I ever will be active again.
I have tattoos.
I believe in Horoscopes
Also, that everything happens for a reason.
The number one thing on my bucket list: Change someones life for the better.
I care too much.
I don't talk about my feelings.
I have been in and out of foster care since I came out of my mothers whom.
I will never do drugs.
I have a little brother that I raised.
I have 2 sisters and 2 brothers.
I have 2 moms and 2 dads.
I don't know the people that brought me into this world.
I am strong, but damaged.
When I try, I am actually really good at things.
I'm not the smartest girl ever, some might even call me blonde.
I love to read.
I push people away, especially the ones I really care about.
My family is everything.
I have the most amazing people in my life that truly care about me.
I forgive way too easily, even the people that don't deserve it.
I can't cook, well I can but I suck at it.
I want 2 kids, thats it.
When I grow up, I wanna be a nurse in labor and delivery or a doctor in pediatrics.
I'm probably the most indecisive person you will ever meet.
I'm also really stubborn.
I'm a perfectionist, if I don't feel like I'm going to be my best at something, I don't try.
I wanna travel the world.
I run away from my problems, and it works... temporarily.
Another fear I have is not being able to commit, to anything.
I'm spontaneous, and when I am.. believe it when I say I don't think about the consequences.
When I blow dry my hair, I look like a Lion.
I am really emotional. Well you will see me cry in any sad book or movie, but unless someone is dying I don't cry, and if I do its very rare.
I expect too much of myself.
My standards are very high, which is why I've already decided I'm dying alone.
I am probably the best friend you could have, ask all of mine, I'll drop whatever it is I'm doing if you need me.
I also hate orange juice, weird right?
My room is always a mess.
I am awful with money, its bad.
And I'm addicted to shopping... hence the bad with money.
I'm outgoing.
I hate asking for help.
I love to write.
My grandma scares me.
I was actually really good at math in High School.
I have made so many mistakes in my life.
I OVER THINK EVERYTHING.
What I hate more then anything is when people feel sorry for me, I am who I am because of the things I've been through. I wouldn't change it for anything.
I live on tumblr and twitter.
I love shoes.
I put salt on literally everything.
I can't walk in heels to save my life.
I absolutely hate scary movies, I had to watch wrong turn 3 times before I actually finished it.
I am unorganized.
I hate snow, but I love winter clothes.
I don't want kids till I'm at the very least 25 but I'm pushing more 30.
I don't trust people.
I like to drink.
I have my immature days.
I am freaking hilarious.
My mom is my hero, and I've only known her 3 years of my life.
I almost joined the Air Force.
I hate being wrong, and its very rare that I ever am.
I wanna find my biological family.
I have a brother and a sister I have never met.
I always give people the benefit of the doubt.
I believe people can change.
Sex doesn't mean anything to me.
I care way too much what people think.
I can be the biggest bitch in the entire world, and it doesn't bother me one bit.
I'm judgemental.
I want to adopt a child.
I wanna move some where, where nobody knows my name.
I would live in yoga pants if I could.

Right now I'm lost, I don't know who I am or what I want, but I am who I am because of what I've been through, the decisions I make on a daily basis define me, they define all of us. I like to believe that there is a plan for me, I may not know what it is at this very moment, but I know that all those little things make me, me. So whether I stay in Utah, or move to some random town where nobody knows me, I'm always going to hate Onions, I am always going to be a daughter and a sister, I'm always going to be stubborn... I'm always going to be Tabi.