“The end result of your life here on earth will always be the sum total of the choices you made while you were here.”
When ever I have made a big decision in my life, there were always people telling me I'm crazy or I haven't thought things through. Then these past few days I have been thinking and I came to the conclusion,, maybe that's just the type of person I am. I like being adventurous and not caring about what happens next. I like meeting new people, and complimenting strangers on their cute shoes. I like trying new things even if its childish, because chances are its probably really fun,, and most of the time it is.
I have a bucket list like most people do, but the difference between me and most people is I am actually going to do them.
&& I want to backpack through Europe, I want to swim with dolphins, and drop a penny on a map and move there,, because when I die, I want people to be jealous of the life I had, I want people to look at my pictures of Facebook and say "Wow, Tabi looks like she is having a blast" because I did have a blast. I did do crazy things. I did live my life to the fullest.
One day I had this marvelous idea to save seven-thousand dollars, and move to a random city in the United States, live there and get a job. Have an amazing time, and then save my money and once I hit seven-thousand dollars,, I would up and move... again. I'm not sure how long I would keep doing that, but that is the point not knowing.
Although my plan is amazing, I know. It is flawed. I need to go to college first. I have options. Utah is one of them, I'm just not sure it is right for me though.
Spending most of my adolescent life there I grew up believing that once you graduate high school, yeah college is next,, but so is marriage. I want to get married someday, everyone does. Except key word in that sentence is someday. I think that if I were to go to college there, I would see all of my friends slowly start getting hitched.. Then I would feel left out because in my gut I know I'm not ready, I still have so much to see and learn. So to avoid all of that I feel its just better if I don't go. But we'll see even though my mind is set... nobody can know yet.
Have you ever wanted to move some where, and have nobody have a clue who you are? Well, I do. And I have a chance to do that. College. I want to not be reminded of my past every five seconds, or wear something I normally could never pull off because somebody who knows me says I can't. I want be able to just be me, whoever I make her out to be.
I'm not crazy, I just finally want to live my life. I am nineteen years old and I don't have to answer to anyone. I don't have a boyfriend I need to consider, I am an adult so the only thing I have to ask my parents for is their blessing, I don't have any kids so I don't have obligations to provide for them. So whats holding me back? Let me tell you...
NOTHING!!
So I am going to live my life knowing my plan,, and when I am ready to let the world know,, I will. So I'll keep you posted,, but until then I am going to have fun, and love every second of it.