"Everything happens for a reason, things fall apart so others can fall together. But whats meant to be will always find its way."
When something bad happens, I like to forget this quote because in my head I'm thinking "what the hell is this reason, because I can't possibly see it right now." But a day or two will go by and the pieces to my once disastrous puzzle, starts to fall back into place.
A wise man once told me "Do whatever you want to do, your heart will lead you the right way." I can't stop thinking about this. Because if I listened to everything my heart told me, I would be the most impulsive person ever and make every decision without thinking. And I'm sure one of those decisions, would get me into big trouble,, no doubt.
My heart told me to move here, for the reasons I now know: I needed time away, to collect my thoughts and define myself. I have learned many things, I have been able to be a friend, a daughter to my father who has missed out on the past 5 years of my life, I have found myself maturing. I have a great life, a good job, my friends, and my dad. Yet, somehow I have this feeling I have come here, and learned what I needed too.
My heart told me to move here, for the reasons I now know: I needed time away, to collect my thoughts and define myself. I have learned many things, I have been able to be a friend, a daughter to my father who has missed out on the past 5 years of my life, I have found myself maturing. I have a great life, a good job, my friends, and my dad. Yet, somehow I have this feeling I have come here, and learned what I needed too.
My plan before moving was amazing. I like to wonder what if? What if I never came to Seattle, would I still be the same person? What would I have been doing? The answers I will never know. But there was a reason my heart led me here, and now my heart is telling me to go back.
My plan before Seattle consist of:
Tons of scholarships.
Dixie State College.
My own dorm.
No job, because of those amazing scholarships.
(So yes, pretty much I would of been living the dream)
My now plan:
I have a full time job.
No car.
No money for college.
I will stop there, so you see my problem? I think this is fates way of tell me, I need to go back.
For whatever the reason, nature will take its course. It always does.
